Beth is brand new to FIT4MOM's Body Back program. Join her as she documents her Body Back journey for the next eight weeks. Body Back is about empowering, finding balance and making lifestyle changes... All in a supportive, all-female setting. Welcome to Beth's journey.
It’s dark out. Like, middle-of-the-night dark. The kind of dark you get used to seeing only out of necessity as you nurse your newborn, barely awake and alone in a quiet house.
And I’m awake. But this time, he’s asleep. Somehow, through grace and good luck, he rests, with his tummy full, happily snuggled and dreaming. I slide slowly out of bed, inch by inch, gently lowering one foot at a time to the ground, body wound tightly with nervous energy, anticipating being needed at any moment.
My sports bra is a little too snug. But really, so is everything I’m wearing and that’s the point. Clothes are on, keys in hand and the drive is quick. There’s a swipe of mascara when I park and then I’m out of the car, squinting again in the dark.
My first Body Back class is a mixture of energetic enthusiasm (our trainer), nervous anticipation (the group), and humility (myself). Ultimately, I break a sweat twice. Once, in anticipation of my weigh-in at the start of class and again at the end, while willing my feet up the four floor parking garage in an attempt to run to the top.
Assessments. Push-ups, squats, sit-ups....(there’s more, but why ruin the surprise?) Their purpose is two-fold. First, they serve as a baseline for judging how far you’ve come at the end, and secondly, and more important to me, they activate my competitive drive.
No one races me to load the dish washer. My competitive drive isn’t activated the way it used to be when I worked full time, juggling deadlines and design meetings. I NEED an outlet or candyland starts to look a little grim in our house.
8 weeks. 16 classes. I’m ready for the adventure. Now hand me the coffee. It’s still dark out.